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Fukuda. You aren't some savior of the free world. Nobody asked you to be. Nobody needs you to be. You may have helped some, but you also killed people who had families, people who had lives, people who may have been able to find other ways of dealing with their problems.
You helped some, but there's blood on your hands. Do you want more? Even if someone asks for one, do you truly feel the weight of that decision? Or do you just want to shove your holes down people's throats and see if it will stick?
Fukuda. You aren't some savior of the free world. Nobody asked you to be. Nobody needs you to be. You may have helped some, but you also killed people who had families, people who had lives, people who may have been able to find other ways of dealing with their problems.
You helped some, but there's blood on your hands. Do you want more? Even if someone asks for one, do you truly feel the weight of that decision? Or do you just want to shove your holes down people's throats and see if it will stick?
[People with families, lives, other options... How is he meant to understand things like that? Things he never had in the first place.]
... Someone else used that word at the trial. [Savior, he means.] I never used it. I wouldn't use it. Just because I wanted to help people doesn't make me special, especially because the only way I knew how to help people was to give them a hole. Any time I try to help another way it just goes wrong.
... Someone else used that word at the trial. [Savior, he means.] I never used it. I wouldn't use it. Just because I wanted to help people doesn't make me special, especially because the only way I knew how to help people was to give them a hole. Any time I try to help another way it just goes wrong.
...I understand you too well. You're the one who keeps using your hole like a mask, Fukuda.
You aren't a hole. You're a flawed, lonely man who desperately wants a normal life, friends, and family like everyone else. You want to help others and be acknowledged. Is that not true? You were cursed, and now you're not, and so you use your hole as a way to try to obtain what you never had.
You aren't a hole. You're a flawed, lonely man who desperately wants a normal life, friends, and family like everyone else. You want to help others and be acknowledged. Is that not true? You were cursed, and now you're not, and so you use your hole as a way to try to obtain what you never had.
Stop being envious and start to be grateful for the things you have. Which is a high order, but if you just keep desperately wanting things or wishing your situation is going to get better, its not. Wanting doesn't do anything. It only makes you feel worse.
[Which is something that he needs to follow himself, but...at least he knows the hell that it is.]
You are not Misa. Your situation and hers may look similar, but they're different. What happened, happened. You can't go back and change the past.
[Which is something that he needs to follow himself, but...at least he knows the hell that it is.]
You are not Misa. Your situation and hers may look similar, but they're different. What happened, happened. You can't go back and change the past.
Hahaha....
[He understands it from Limbo, but isn't this Douman human? He can't bring himself to point that out, for some reason.]
Even if I could stop myself from wanting things to be better than they are, there wouldn't be any point in being alive. "Things are never going to get any better than they are now" was what I was thinking when I put that drill to my head.
[He understands it from Limbo, but isn't this Douman human? He can't bring himself to point that out, for some reason.]
Even if I could stop myself from wanting things to be better than they are, there wouldn't be any point in being alive. "Things are never going to get any better than they are now" was what I was thinking when I put that drill to my head.
[Anyways, Douman is definitely fuming as they drag Fukuda along back to the apartments. In their haste they forgot to...actually get anything to cover Fukuda up. Its fine..]
You're a fool, you know! Your brains must have leaked out of that hole of yours-!
You're a fool, you know! Your brains must have leaked out of that hole of yours-!
[Fukuda is still pretty jazzed about Douman putting forth the effort to try and make him feel better, but the palpable irritation is tamping it down somewhat.]
I mean, brains aren't liquid, so it couldn't have. Anything that leaked out would just be cerebrospinal fluid.
[Classic Fukuda, missing the point entirely.]
I mean, brains aren't liquid, so it couldn't have. Anything that leaked out would just be cerebrospinal fluid.
[Classic Fukuda, missing the point entirely.]
Edited 2021-03-16 20:17 (UTC)
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