[It's difficult to tell how Childe's feeling from his expression, as he looks at Douman. He can't pat them on the shoulder or anything, because sticky week--but would he even want to? It's difficult to say.]
...It often is, in my experience. It's why I'm most comfortable with people like Mahito. [Who is not a person, but Douman probably knows what he means.]
It's a bit late for that, comrade. [laughs in abyss.] I wouldn't call it a thrill. But everyone else here lost sight of their goals so quickly, and grew attached to each other. He and I seem to be the only ones who weren't so weak and foolish.
[In his biased and condescending opinion, which isn't even completely true because he's like || this attached to a couple people. But still. His point is that he's not Mahito's BFF 4 Life or anything.]
lifts a hand, pressing it to the back of his mouth to hide his smile.]
That's more or less what I told her, yes. [TERRIBLE.] She was very offended that I implied there was a chance she wouldn't kill me for her goals. That's the only reason we ever got as close as we did--I wouldn't have accepted it otherwise.
[Of course Childe couldn't have a normal fucking ship.
But he also doesn't know that Medb is furious at him for saving himself, so there's that]
Yes, Lust told me as much. It's close enough to the truth, so I told her to let them think what they wanted. [but--] Why was Medb angry about it? Because I didn't tell her?
[congrats Douman you've unlocked the secret "dumb man" side of Childe's personality]
He lifts both hands defensively, though he still looks bewildered. Poor Douman, having to deal with this.]
I was always going to die again shortly after anyway! [HE SAYS, LIKE IT WAS OBVIOUS, because it was.] Besides, just because it didn't stick doesn't mean it didn't count. She did a fantastic job killing me!
[Childe]
There was no use in mentioning it when I didn't even know if it would work or not. Lust told me she'd never seen a condemned survive an execution before. And it could only revive me halfway--they're the ones who brought me to the medical bay.
For someone supposedly so smart, it seems like your head is filled with nothing but air. If she killed you again for your remarkable idiocy, I would say she deserves every moment of that.
Technically, Lust saved me. I didn't ask her for that power.
[SO SOMEONE ELSE DID SAVE HIM by giving him the power to save himself...]
What was I supposed to do, waste it to make them all feel good? [Hah. He would never. And more importantly--] Lust would've been heartbroken. I couldn't do that to her even if I'd wanted to.
[not!sibling takes priority over kinda!girlfriend...]
I'm not saying what you should or shouldn't have done. And Lust made her own decision. I'm calling you an idiot because you couldn't understand why Medb would be upset.
For a minute, Childe looks like he's remembering something, a doubtful frown on his face; but then he turns his gaze away with a small, uncomfortable shrug.]
...I'm not so sure that's it. I think you're overestimating her feelings for me.
Oh, no, I definitely believe she's angry with me. [Easily! Even though he doesn't seem too bothered about that part.] But I doubt it had anything to do with concern or relief. Her heart isn't that soft.
[God he hopes she's just mad he stole her kill. If she let herself get all emotional over him he's going to tear his own hair out.
It would probably be better if she didn't have one. Then she wouldn't be fond of a person like me.
[This sounds so dramatic and angsty but he just sounds like it's a factual statement, with a hint of amusement.]
But you can rest assured that I'm doing everything I can to ensure we make it out of here somehow. If we manage that, I'll worry about her feelings. I'd prefer not to die a third time.
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...It often is, in my experience. It's why I'm most comfortable with people like Mahito. [Who is not a person, but Douman probably knows what he means.]
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[There's a slight scowl at the mention of that name.]
I would not recommend throwing in your lot with curses. Then again, the very thought of it brings you a thrill, doesn't it?
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It's a bit late for that, comrade. [laughs in abyss.] I wouldn't call it a thrill. But everyone else here lost sight of their goals so quickly, and grew attached to each other. He and I seem to be the only ones who weren't so weak and foolish.
[In his biased and condescending opinion, which isn't even completely true because he's like || this attached to a couple people. But still. His point is that he's not Mahito's BFF 4 Life or anything.]
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[Yeah, Douman is going to raise an eyebrow at that.]
Is that what you would say to Medb?
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lifts a hand, pressing it to the back of his mouth to hide his smile.]
That's more or less what I told her, yes. [TERRIBLE.] She was very offended that I implied there was a chance she wouldn't kill me for her goals. That's the only reason we ever got as close as we did--I wouldn't have accepted it otherwise.
[Of course Childe couldn't have a normal fucking ship.
But he also doesn't know that Medb is furious at him for saving himself, so there's that]
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[Because even at Limbo at the reins, even he could tell that was a lady not to be trifled with.]
She's going to kill you the next time she sees you, you know. I think the gall of you surviving at your own hand that was quite a blow to her esteem.
[yeah they're just going to Say It]
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[Apparently he genuinely believes this because he looks a little confused.]
What? Why? We were fine, the week of my death.
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...They all believe you saved yourself, Childe. They discussed it in trial. She was quite angry with that.
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Well, he still looks kind of confused]
Yes, Lust told me as much. It's close enough to the truth, so I told her to let them think what they wanted. [but--] Why was Medb angry about it? Because I didn't tell her?
[congrats Douman you've unlocked the secret "dumb man" side of Childe's personality]
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[EMOTIONALLY AND MENTALLY LOOKS INTO THE CAMERA LIKE ON THE OFFICE]
Yes! Idiot! She went through all that trouble to kill you and then it turns out you may have saved yourself? Why wouldn't she be mad?
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WHY IS HE GETTING YELLED AT
He lifts both hands defensively, though he still looks bewildered. Poor Douman, having to deal with this.]
I was always going to die again shortly after anyway! [HE SAYS, LIKE IT WAS OBVIOUS, because it was.] Besides, just because it didn't stick doesn't mean it didn't count. She did a fantastic job killing me!
[Childe]
There was no use in mentioning it when I didn't even know if it would work or not. Lust told me she'd never seen a condemned survive an execution before. And it could only revive me halfway--they're the ones who brought me to the medical bay.
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[Sliding a hand down their face.]
For someone supposedly so smart, it seems like your head is filled with nothing but air. If she killed you again for your remarkable idiocy, I would say she deserves every moment of that.
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Why?!
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[LIKE...HELLO??]
She obviously cared for you and with that sort of move one would think you're a sociopath! Well....actually, maybe you are.
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Well,]
Technically, Lust saved me. I didn't ask her for that power.
[SO SOMEONE ELSE DID SAVE HIM by giving him the power to save himself...]
What was I supposed to do, waste it to make them all feel good? [Hah. He would never. And more importantly--] Lust would've been heartbroken. I couldn't do that to her even if I'd wanted to.
[not!sibling takes priority over kinda!girlfriend...]
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I'm not saying what you should or shouldn't have done. And Lust made her own decision. I'm calling you an idiot because you couldn't understand why Medb would be upset.
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...
Well now he doesn't want to say he still doesn't get it so he just scratches the back of his neck awkwardly]
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[THIS IS SO STUPID]
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She's mad because I... hurt her pride...?
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She's mad because it makes the relief she felt worthless.
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For a minute, Childe looks like he's remembering something, a doubtful frown on his face; but then he turns his gaze away with a small, uncomfortable shrug.]
...I'm not so sure that's it. I think you're overestimating her feelings for me.
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[Folding their arms!]
True, I do not know of your relationship. But she was upset, truly.
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[God he hopes she's just mad he stole her kill. If she let herself get all emotional over him he's going to tear his own hair out.
A sigh.]
If we make it out of here, I'll explain properly.
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[Like, come on. To say otherwise would be an insult.]
...She's one who appreciates the strong, and the willing. Even if I am not her Servant...even I can appreciate that. You'd better make it up to her.
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[This sounds so dramatic and angsty but he just sounds like it's a factual statement, with a hint of amusement.]
But you can rest assured that I'm doing everything I can to ensure we make it out of here somehow. If we manage that, I'll worry about her feelings. I'd prefer not to die a third time.