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Mm. But it had an effect, didn't it? And if I hit it harder than that...
[He gives it a harder shove, and the TILT sign lights up, disabling the... ball flickers. I forget what they're called. What you hit the pinball with.]
That's why you have to be gentle!
[He gives it a harder shove, and the TILT sign lights up, disabling the... ball flickers. I forget what they're called. What you hit the pinball with.]
That's why you have to be gentle!
... Aah. I mean, I suppose they still voted for a killer with me, but they only found out about the ones before because someone accused me in the first place? Based on nothing but my own hole and the drill bit in my pocket.
[Regardless of what was revealed after, Molly and Gu Yun accused him on no evidence but his own self, whereas people hesitated to accuse Misa when evidence pointed to her.]
[Regardless of what was revealed after, Molly and Gu Yun accused him on no evidence but his own self, whereas people hesitated to accuse Misa when evidence pointed to her.]
...Fukuda.
[Their tone is level as they stop to turn their attention back to him.]
What happened to you was wrong. No one is arguing that. But what you said is not true. You say people went after you for very little, but you kept pushing for people to consider Ming Yi as a culprit, didn't you? It already made people suspicious because you were too insistent. It was not wrong to do, technically, but...Fukuda. Do not lie to yourself. You were starting to sow the seeds of your own destruction unintentionally from the beginning.
[Their tone is level as they stop to turn their attention back to him.]
What happened to you was wrong. No one is arguing that. But what you said is not true. You say people went after you for very little, but you kept pushing for people to consider Ming Yi as a culprit, didn't you? It already made people suspicious because you were too insistent. It was not wrong to do, technically, but...Fukuda. Do not lie to yourself. You were starting to sow the seeds of your own destruction unintentionally from the beginning.
You were more insistent than you thought you were. And then bringing up why you have your hole and why you gave holes to others...did you really think people would have sympathy for your reasoning?
[Douman frowns.]
And then you had to go against Limbo during the trial. Are you a fool, Fukuda, to poke a beast like that? Was the momentary victory worth it?
[Douman frowns.]
And then you had to go against Limbo during the trial. Are you a fool, Fukuda, to poke a beast like that? Was the momentary victory worth it?
....
[He's silent for a long moment.]
When I drilled my hole, I didn't want to live anymore, because it was just me alone with the numbers. But instead, I survived, and the hole made my thoughts clearer. It was as if the hole was telling me to live.
So I thought I should hope for other things to change too. Even though still, people can only see me as a man with a hole in his head.
[He's silent for a long moment.]
When I drilled my hole, I didn't want to live anymore, because it was just me alone with the numbers. But instead, I survived, and the hole made my thoughts clearer. It was as if the hole was telling me to live.
So I thought I should hope for other things to change too. Even though still, people can only see me as a man with a hole in his head.
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