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So you're projecting.
[A definite, blunt statement.]
Do you realize that people may not do what you expect of them, Fukuda? To assume is pointless. You thinking I prefer someone over another is a meaningless thing that you have chosen to emphasize. An terribly irrational feeling.
[And a beat.]
Ah, but I can't say this humble priest doesn't deal with such irrationality, too.
[A definite, blunt statement.]
Do you realize that people may not do what you expect of them, Fukuda? To assume is pointless. You thinking I prefer someone over another is a meaningless thing that you have chosen to emphasize. An terribly irrational feeling.
[And a beat.]
Ah, but I can't say this humble priest doesn't deal with such irrationality, too.
...
[haha what thoughts]
And I am not saying you are right, either. And my thoughts change, day in and day out. You may ask me this tomorrow and get a different answer. I am...unlike all of you. After all, I am only a Servant.
[A beat.]
I like you and Omi for altogether different reasons.
[haha what thoughts]
And I am not saying you are right, either. And my thoughts change, day in and day out. You may ask me this tomorrow and get a different answer. I am...unlike all of you. After all, I am only a Servant.
[A beat.]
I like you and Omi for altogether different reasons.
[Their smile curves, like the cut of a knife.]
A hole is defined by what is around it, does it not? You are someone who exists as a hole does. You allow others to define who you are, because without that...well, you don't wish to think about what isn't there.
I don't need to know who you are, or even assume, because that's the kind of existence you have. By yourself, you would be nothing, just nothing at all, hm?
A hole is defined by what is around it, does it not? You are someone who exists as a hole does. You allow others to define who you are, because without that...well, you don't wish to think about what isn't there.
I don't need to know who you are, or even assume, because that's the kind of existence you have. By yourself, you would be nothing, just nothing at all, hm?
[Fukuda actually tenses up in a way he hasn't before here. His expression doesn't shift much, but his energy is completely different.]
... A hole is a good thing, you know. It's something helpful.
[All serious again. He's not looking at Douman, though.]
... A hole is a good thing, you know. It's something helpful.
[All serious again. He's not looking at Douman, though.]
Aah.
[Alright, he senses evasion is no longer working.]
I don't dislike numbers, exactly. But... before I had my hole, it wasn't a choice I got to make. I had to count. I had to do things three times. It didn't matter if it was important or distracting or I wanted to stop.
[Alright, he senses evasion is no longer working.]
I don't dislike numbers, exactly. But... before I had my hole, it wasn't a choice I got to make. I had to count. I had to do things three times. It didn't matter if it was important or distracting or I wanted to stop.
...I see.
[Not that Douman truly understands the significance of this explanation, but they can comprehend the reality of it well enough. Their hand moves to stroke through Fukuda's hair, their voice a low murmur.]
Like a curse. Trapped in your own head by...numbers. Yes?
[Not that Douman truly understands the significance of this explanation, but they can comprehend the reality of it well enough. Their hand moves to stroke through Fukuda's hair, their voice a low murmur.]
Like a curse. Trapped in your own head by...numbers. Yes?
[Hm! He hesitates for a moment, because he's never thought of it quite like that before.]
... Aah. I suppose it did.
[leaning a little heavier into the hand holding his chin in place, though also Douman should keep petting his head with the other hand?]
... Aah. I suppose it did.
[leaning a little heavier into the hand holding his chin in place, though also Douman should keep petting his head with the other hand?]
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