[That's horrifying. The thing that they placed their worship into...]
I'm...no, you don't need to apologize, Yuel. [And a downcast look.] When I died...I actually wanted to die again. Because I didn't want to live in a future where I could become that thing. I had no hope. And I...can imagine that your friend wants to avoid a future like that, too.
Its complicated, but essentially...Servants are reflections of figures from history. Apparently, in the future, I...do terrible things. Awful things. And the Servant that was born from my history, from my future deeds, was the one who took over me. They are...an Alter Ego.
From what I understood of Limbo's thoughts, and what they said to me...I would never overcome the inferiority of never being better than...my friend. Seimei.
[sometimes jealousy drives you to the dark side!!]
Seimei has...always been my friend. But I...I don't know. I hate to admit it, but I think there will always be a part of me that...loathes him, no matter how hard I try to ignore it. He's loved by all. I'm not. In the end, I'm...I'm a shadow. And I hate it.
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W3 WEDNESDAY
[Here's a clown just..............napping on the counter of the bar? Well, their head is certainly down on it, and they're not moving.]
[You know, maybe they're just dead ahead of schedule. That would be nice?]
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She'll go and get a cushion for their head. ]
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Eh...what? Yuel...?
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[Just pouting up at her?]
I shouldn't be sleeping here, anyways...its uncomfortable. Even with this...pillow.
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Yer right—I'll take ya to bed.
[ Begins easing him off the counter... so she can carry him... ]
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[They just grouch like a grumpy cat, trying to resist.]
You know I can walk on my own, right? I'm not some child...
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But yer sleepy aren't ya?
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[A low sigh.]
This week has been brutal, incredibly so. Its quite tiring.
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[ tell auntie yuel all about your troubles ]
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[just EXTREME INDULGENCE, ALL THE TIME]
A priest like myself needs rest, too. Don't you feel it yourself?
w6 thursday
[They spot Yuel, a little surprised, before bowing politely to her.]
A-ah, Yuel. Hello.
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... Yo. How's it goin'?
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[They just look at her with like...nervous dog energies?]
[WHO IS THIS MAN]
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... Something spook ya?
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[but still! anxiety!]
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So. You were possessed, huh?
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Yes, I was. I'm...glad I'm not, now.
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She pats their shoulder. ]
My friend's in the same boat. It's really terrible.
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[nani?]
I'm...sorry for your friend. Is it an evil spirit, or?
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[ frowns at him ]
I'm sorry ya had to die to be free.
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[That's horrifying. The thing that they placed their worship into...]
I'm...no, you don't need to apologize, Yuel. [And a downcast look.] When I died...I actually wanted to die again. Because I didn't want to live in a future where I could become that thing. I had no hope. And I...can imagine that your friend wants to avoid a future like that, too.
[A nod.]
I hope you find a way to help Societte.
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Why did it pick ya?
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[And a bit of a surprised look.]
Yuel. Limbo was me.
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[ wait what ]
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[Again, the nervous dog energies.]
Its complicated, but essentially...Servants are reflections of figures from history. Apparently, in the future, I...do terrible things. Awful things. And the Servant that was born from my history, from my future deeds, was the one who took over me. They are...an Alter Ego.
[SOMETIMES YOU GET POSSESSED WITH YOURSELF??]
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[It hurts to say, but...]
From what I understood of Limbo's thoughts, and what they said to me...I would never overcome the inferiority of never being better than...my friend. Seimei.
[sometimes jealousy drives you to the dark side!!]
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[ glances at his tattoo ]
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Indeed. Envy.
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[They look conflicted, glancing away.]
Seimei has...always been my friend. But I...I don't know. I hate to admit it, but I think there will always be a part of me that...loathes him, no matter how hard I try to ignore it. He's loved by all. I'm not. In the end, I'm...I'm a shadow. And I hate it.