It's not a delusion. Miss Aoi said I was her friend without me asking her to. She told me she's learning here. How to feel things beyond what she was programmed to feel. I can tell that it's true just by talking to her.
Even a doll can learn to go past its nature. It doesn't change the fact that its a doll. You're right, though. She and I have been learning a lot about what love is all about! Hahaha, but even I can tell she won't make it there.
Well, I thought you were kind, mr Douman. But as soon as things don't go the way you like, it stops.
Even though she was afraid, even though she thought it was wrong what I did, Aoi still came to see me. She told me she'd miss me. Maybe I'm wrong but... is there a single person here you'd really miss if they were gone? If they did something you didn't like?
That's no different from anyone else. People aren't born knowing how to do much of anything. We have to learn, to be taught by others. How to walk, talk, and feel... Humans are always learning new things.
... You're not human, right? That's why you don't know these things? I may be bad at talking to people, I may not have a lot of experiences, but I know how it feels to suffer being human.
I feel bad for you though, father. That you really can't see things for how they are... I don't know if a hole could even help you. You're already missing so much.
What kind of compassion is that? Some scraps you throw to the starving dogs? Take your pity and throw it away! I'd rather you soon insult me than giving me that!
[Now Douman is just ranting, eyes wide, heart cold, all cold.]
You have no right to know. And even if I knew, I wouldn't tell you! Hahaha! Ahahahaha!
You can't control how people feel. Even if you tell me not to, I will. Because I know your sin. It's envy.
You're acting like you're above it all. But you're trying to learn what love is. That's what you're jealous of. You want what people have... So I'm telling you that you don't get to pick and choose. That's not what love is. Talking with everyone here helped me understand that.
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Even a doll can learn to go past its nature. It doesn't change the fact that its a doll. You're right, though. She and I have been learning a lot about what love is all about! Hahaha, but even I can tell she won't make it there.
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I have to.
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I am here precisely for...love! Yes, love.
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... I'm sad I didn't get to know you more. If you're like Aoi, you're like me too. Maybe we could have understood each other.
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[A sharp tone - that smile fades, eyes becoming as hard as obsidian.]
And what, would you have drilled a hole in my head to help me? I think not.
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And I think that "doll" knows a lot more about love than you.
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Even though she was afraid, even though she thought it was wrong what I did, Aoi still came to see me. She told me she'd miss me. Maybe I'm wrong but... is there a single person here you'd really miss if they were gone? If they did something you didn't like?
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What does "missing" have to do with it?
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[Just giving a nod and tapping at their chin.]
You taught me something! I'll have to remember that, then.
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I'm relieved now, really. Now I'm certain Aoi will defy your expectations, if you know so little yourself.
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Tch. She was programmed by humans! Humans know what love is. She is only acting out what is taught.
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That's no different from anyone else. People aren't born knowing how to do much of anything. We have to learn, to be taught by others. How to walk, talk, and feel... Humans are always learning new things.
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I feel bad for you though, father. That you really can't see things for how they are... I don't know if a hole could even help you. You're already missing so much.
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[Douman's face distorts with a snarl.]
You who think obsession is akin to sentimentality, ha! Don't even begin to lecture me! You have no idea who I am, what I am!
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[There's nothing bad about it.]
Of course I don't know what you won't tell me. All I know is what you'd said to me so far.
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[Now Douman is just ranting, eyes wide, heart cold, all cold.]
You have no right to know. And even if I knew, I wouldn't tell you! Hahaha! Ahahahaha!
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You're acting like you're above it all. But you're trying to learn what love is. That's what you're jealous of. You want what people have... So I'm telling you that you don't get to pick and choose. That's not what love is. Talking with everyone here helped me understand that.
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